sorry...*L*

I apologize for complaining. I have NOTHING to complain about. My things are not a drop in the bucket compared to some families. I have a job and a home I can afford so I need to be grateful and not dwell on the tiny aggravations of life. Leaves for crying out loud it is just leaves and trash cans.
I need to add right here and right now something that I am extremely grateful for. Muffy and Aaron gave me my gym membership and it is the best thing anyone could have done for me. The very best. I still have to make myself go but when I am there I am comfortable and ready to work. I don't want to miss going but I have so many chores that need doing around here that I have to make time and just do it. The spring in my step is coming back. You are never to old to exercise and weight bearing exercise is so rewarding.

To all of you who have lost weight and exercise I have to make note here....I had forgotten what it feels like to have muscle instead of fat. I had gotten used to thinking I felt OK walking around with no muscle but I see now how tired carrying the fat makes you feel. It is not good. Your back hurts, your knees are weak and you have no breath. Everything aches, I feel like I had started to turn my thoughts inward on every ache and pain. Life is painful, you bump the end of the bed while your making it up, you trip on the edge of the rug and almost fall and bang yourself bringing the grocery bags in. I remember thinking ouch owww ohhhh alot of times but now it seems silly. When I load the leg press, the weights weigh 45 lbs and it's no big deal. No grocery bag weighs 45 lbs. I guess I mean life doesn't hurt and ache anymore . The soreness is a GOOD soreness now. I can feel myself coming back alive.

Thank you to my beloved family, I love them so much and their kindness daily overwhelms me.

I am not gonna be on the pages of muscle and fitness BUT my grass is gonna be cut in a timely fashion . BTW you can get fit in in your middle age......if you want to.

I'm back

I can't seem to keep the mometum up here, I read at other sites but sometimes I don't have anything to say. I think it is because I talk at work all day and I am talked/typed out.
The exercise is going very well, I can tell that I am making major changes in my fitness. I can run through R.O.C.K. in the USA with out my mouth open sucking air and barely finnishing it. TaDah. I have bested myself by seconds the last two treadmill sessions and I guess I will have to be satistfied with seconds and hope for minutes as time goes by.
The weight lifting part comes alot more easily to me. I have squatted 105 and pressed 95 so I think that is just a matter of doing the work. WORK that is all it is. Can you do the hard work, is the answer to getting fit. Sounds easy and it IS NOT.

Now....mental things......I find this the hardest part. I can get myself worked up over the least things. For instance, my neighbors who NEVER bring they're trash cans back from the road. If I have another of my customers ask me why don't I bring my cans back to my house I will scream. I have spoken to them but to no avail. The owner blows her leaves into my yard and burns limbs on the cormer of my property . This is gettin so old and disrespectful.

The house is for sale and by golly if one of my family doesn't buy the house then I will have to have an iron-clad agreement about the new owners using my driveway. The property is land locked and I have to give ingress and egress ( sp?). Now that is getting to me .
Next I am turning off my house phone and just using my cell pretty soon. I have put my cell number on my answering machine and repeated the number slowly three times and I still have customers leaving messages on the house phone. DUH!!! I am having to keep it on for a few more months while they finally get the message. I want to scream PAY ATTENTION!!!
I can't list all my grievances it would overtake this blog...might be more interesting though.
Exercise is an perfect escape. I sweat and channel all my frustration into working out.
I think that if people would just be aware of what is actually their property and what is their right and not let their mess/disfunction spill over into somone else's life then we would all get along better. I don't want to work and pay for someone else's laziness or bad choices.
I believe in helping a neighbor or friend but it would be nice to think that they appreciate your help. I know I know we should be willing to help with no hope for acknowlegement but this world is full of takers nowadays and the givers are getting worn thin.
I would never think to blow my leaves into my neigbors yard or even walk onto their property without just reason.
AHHHH let me get to the gymn and shut up

Thursday

Today I needed to get my legs done because I will be out of town Saturday. I am going to meet friends in New Orleans for an overnight visit and junking at the flea markets. I can't wait to see them.
The thought of missing a workout worries me and today I still didn't really feel like myself. I discovered why yesterday. It is the green squiggles off the live oaks. Spring is so close and the trees are about to set their leaves. It's allergy time in other words. That explains the maliase I have been feeling.
I thought I was losing my desire to get this done and that is not it at all. Thank goodness!
Today I got in my 2 miles on the treadmill and then the almighty step ups, which by the way are getting a teeny bit easier. Leg press, calves, hamstrings and then leg extensions. Always abs every workout. So now I can enjoy my visit with friends and be back right on schedule on Monday.
So I'm on my way to N.O. tommorrow and the junk stores await!!!!!

I did it anyway

Today I felt kinda tired and not so great. I kept my housedress on the whole day. I was suppose to go to the gym today and shoulders bi's and tri's. I just could not make myself. I took an afternoon nap and just felt poorly.
The more I thought about not going to the gym the worse it made me feel. The guilt was overwhelming. Tonight the Biggest Loser was gonna be on and I knew I would feel horrible watching it and knowing I missed my workout.
SO...I got myself up ,put on old clothes ,drug my bike and trainer into the living room and did my workout at home during Biggest Loser. Thirty minutes on my bike pretty fast and then all of my shoulder bi's and tri's excerises. I have dumbells here at home. I used 12's for all my sets. I finnished up with alot of lower ab excercises.
I did it and the feeling of not missing is awesome.
It is better at the gym because of the air , the room and the whole idea of it being set up for excercise but my living room was OK in a pinch.
So memo to self.....the guilt of not doing is huge and the excitment of accomplishment feels so good.
I did it .

It's a new week

I thought that I would post everyday but my life is not that full so every once in a while is about all I'm good for. Sad as it sounds.
This past Saturday I had an awesome leg workout. I knew it was awesome because I had legs like Jello. If you can still walk normally then you didn't work hard enough. I have accepted the challenge to myself to do step-ups every leg day. When they get easy then I will add a riser.
I told Aaron today that I am not able to run but for 3 minutes. I can't seem to break past the three minute mark. I am walking at 4.0 to 4.3 , I can only run at 5.6 for 3 minutes. Aaron gave me a plan to start adding running time. I'm gonna get those instructions one more time( I forgot exactly how long to do what) and then I will give it a try.
Today was chest and back and my ability to add more weight and keep my form is going pretty good.
I thought I might add here that this whole process is not being driven by my want to be in a beauty pagent or wear a size 4. I simply want to cut my grass in 1 session instead of 2.


LOL Aaron here is MY list....

I want to cut my grass in 1 day instead of 2
I want to bring in my groceries in 2 trips instead of 5
I want to walk down the steps without thinking I'm gonna fall
And if I do trip, I want to be able to get up and dust myself off instead of calling an ambulance.
I want to walk my long driveway to the mailbox and not be winded.
I want to pull weeds and rake and plant and still be able to walk into the house and not collaspe on the couch.
But mostly I want to just dream to feel like I did before the wreck when I was strong and fit and took my good health for granted.

She's gone

I don't want to be negative about anyone but I just have to say that Jonelle is gone from the Biggest Loser and I am glad.
She was not trying!!!!! You have to try. You have to give it all you have. The muscle lives in the last two reps you think you just cannot do. I have 15 reps to on all my excercises and I am gonna do them even if it kills me and sometimes it does.
Bye bye Jonelle you didn't try hard enough.
Give it all you got and you will rewarded..that's what I tell myself every time I go to the gym. I have allllmost got myself convenced, all most.

oops!

Don't let me make appointments for you. I thought yesterday was Tuesday.
I got off schedule this morning and I thought about not going to the gym till tommorrow . Nah I made myself go. I walked outside for my 2 miles. It was glorious. The sun was shining and it was in the 60's. There is a track at the health club.
When I went inside to workout on the weights I found that I was the only one there whu who!!!! It was peaceful and I got a good workout even after I drug my feet about going. I worked my triceps hard but it felt good.
Tonight the cold is coming back but I have done all my body parts already so I just need to add some more cardio.
Little tiny steps that will add up in the long run. My strength is returning after 6 years of being absent. I can hardly believe it. Even at this age (56) I am gonna be stronger than I was at 45.
I believe/know it is in the recovery. You have to recover to gain. I am proof of muscle memory and the benefits of recovery time.I have been going to the gym since Nov. 20 and I am able to lift 4 sets of 15 with 15 lb. dumbells. Muscle memory.